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02 April 2005 @ 11:30 am
Peragro Finis: The End of an Ordeal  
This is upstairs, in my room.

"You guys going somewhere?"

"Yea, we're going out to lunch and a movie...Your mom has cabin fever. She has a whole list of stuff she wants to do at home, but she has cabin fever....So did you talk to your scheduler about Bible Study?"


"It was cancelled Wednesday, so it was no big deal. However I noticed you worked Wednesday and Sunday again. Did you talk to them?"


"Why not?"

"Because I'm not going."


"So you're being defiant?"


"Then you realize there are consequences for that?"


"I'm just going to have to make things difficult for you then if you wont obey. This is my house. Do you have a plan?"


"Do you have a date?"



"Two months from now."

"Well I want a date of exactly when. I'm not going to debate about this, that's your mom's style."

"I know."

"I also want you to tell your mother what's going on. I tried to leave your mom out of it, she asked a few questions of me and I told her she needs to talk to you."


So that's that. Said and done. Boy, do I feel better (and worse; glad its over but I'm more than sad it has to come to this. Gives me yet another reason to be frustrated with religion.). I'm really trying to be positive about this, I really am. It's "a push on my path to success...," the "kick in the rear I need to start on my own." Not "religious fanaticism from centuries of intolerance tearing me from my comfortable roots and enveloping me like a tidal wave." Cuz that's what it feels like. His ideas and life philosophy means more to him than I do. Fine. I can be difficult too. Time to push back.

I hope one of them feels bad about this. If not I could probably walk away and never see them again. Ok, I have to go work now. Anyone have a cream to loosen the trenches carved into my brow cuz I am fucking pissed right now.

Oh, and can anyone help me find a Countdown Clock for this page, I can't find one and I gotta go work soon.

Latin is such a beautiful language.
Current Mood: crushedcrushed
Current Music: Something with lots of chainsaws
NTHGTHDGDCRTDTRKmodernzombie on April 2nd, 2005 07:41 pm (UTC)
sometimes i wish i could tell them that i just don't want to go.

sometimes i also wish i had a million dollars. :\
Kath: Japanesevenakali on April 3rd, 2005 12:24 am (UTC)
Two months til... you move out? Graduate? Blow up the church? He slaps his forehead and says 'wow son, I've been an idiot, you've been right all along!'?

Like I said before, Derek & I will drive ya anywhere if need be, or anything else ya need that's within our power to help ya with. Our landlord actually bought more buildings and said they have openings for May, so if ya need a place, I can call 'em up...
Margueritefionnuala on April 3rd, 2005 05:29 am (UTC)
I'm really sorry your parents are being like this. I would like to tell you that both Ari and Josh would be more then happy about your rooming with them. Talk to Ari one way or the other ok? If nothing else it gives you a bit of breathing room about getting your own place. And hell, you can then tell your parents your joining a commune =) i mean it feels like one here sometimes with everyone who lives here all going in and out all the time.
turbotrollturbotroll on April 4th, 2005 03:32 am (UTC)
Ah, you guys are great, everyones been really cool in offering me places and stuff. Hey, I have an idea! I can move in with EVERYONE because everyone loves me so much! Sunday I'll live with Kath and Derek...Monday I'll live with Ari and Margie...Tuesday I'll switch to Jeremiah's...And so forth until....No?

I thought it was a good idea.
Jackiejackie34 on April 5th, 2005 03:18 pm (UTC)
I'm sorry, but this has made me so, so angry--you'd almost think it was happening to me. It's just you're damn near perfect, everyone knows it, and you do one little thing that doesn't fall in line, and suddenly it's out that door! It's not fair. How is that fucking Christian? "You're being defiant"? You "won't obey"? What the hell is that? You're not a dog, for Christ's sake. Not to mention the strain he's putting on your relationship with your mother, who should be choosing you over him, and telling him exactly where to shove it (which my mother has never wasted any time in telling my Dad)...it just makes no sense to me. All this time, I've thought of your family as the picture of normalcy. I can't believe religion can make otherwise intelligent people become this mentally unhinged.

End rant. I feel better. How about you?
turbotrollturbotroll on April 5th, 2005 03:39 pm (UTC)
See, I kept saying "it's not that simple, my parents will wig out," when we would talk about it in the deli and you would ask me why I just don't tell them I don't want to go.

But don't lost any sleep over it, I knew it wouldn't be pretty...I've moved beyond pissed off now to merely amused that my mom said I've changed so much in the past few months when the only thing that's actually changed was...they realized I have a difference in religious philosophy and refused to comform to their wants.

Oh, and NEAR PERFECT?! I thought we agreed I WAS perfect...Or maybe it was just me who thought that...